Update in My Life (Changes)

Welcome and thanks for reading. (Excuse Me Miss by Jay Z playing in the background). Saturday October 3rd 09 I attended the wonderful Kentucky Collegiate Leadership Conference. I met some wonderful people and networked liked crazy. I shook hands with the owner of a $6 billion company. I had a wonderful time and enjoyed myself. It gave me a renewed sense of what I was doing in my life. I always know what I want to do, but being there just put it back in the front of my head. Needless to say, it was a great experience.

Some of you may know or may not know that I am joining the National Guard. It is a business decision as well as a decision I made to better myself and my family. I want a challenge, and the National Guard will challenge me. Basically it was a no-brainer. Hopefully I can leave in Jan & only miss 1 semester of school and basketball since I am redshirting this year anyway.

Other than that, nothing else has been going on in my life. I'm enjoying my life each day, and gearing up for my future.

1st week of school

Well the first week of school went smooth. I am taking 16 hours, & i wanted to take more. hopefully next semester i can hit the 17-18 mark. Right now, im trying to get involved in as many club & activities as possible. Right now, i am playing on the basketball team (even tho im redshirting), i am managing the mens & womens soccer team, & i am on the student senate. Club rush is next week so i will sign up for more. not much going on on my end. i am striving to make all a's & b's this semester and i know if i apply myself i can. thanks all folks.

Update!

Whats up World? I'm blessed right now. I'm living and loving my life right now! I'm listening to Freddie Gibbs, chilling, layed back. In my life, I'm about to be busy these next couple of weeks. I have my family reunion in Detroit next weekend & then the weekend after that, I'm off to school to finish the 2nd of my four years! I'm still st St. Catherine. Check us out at sccky.edu. This year I am expanding my athletic & academic repertoire. I am playing soccer, well actually practicing & I'll be the manager on game day. I'll be able to play games next year. I am also debating on softball. I just wanna stay busy & focused & get the most of my college experience. As far as academic, I am still going to be on the Student Senate, & I am going to try to join another organization as well as get a job. I'll be plenty busy! My cousin, Alexis, is in the Big Bang Theory, which is a dance production. It's tomorrow, so I'm excited to get to see her perform. As far as everything else, I'm good. Also tonight rapper Drake, fell down & injured his leg. Let's hope he's OK. That's all for now! Thanks for reading.

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Peace & Blessings!

i have bn absent

i know this. i reason really. i havent bn in the mood 2 post anything significant. but im kinda in a down mood. a rapper i liked gt killed 2day. he will get his own post tho. & 2ma ill update yu guys on my life.

yo;

its been a while since i have blogged but honestly i havent found much to blog about...ummm lets see...im extremely pissed that jack frost hit KY and i have bn stuck at the catty for a WHOLE WEEK without shit to do...huh...now that thats off my chest....i have been like seriously sleepin alot...prolly becuz i dnt have anything else to do...but then it hit me...everyday when i close my eyes i go over the days events in my mind and these last few days i have been very upset becuz i couldnt find anything productive that i did...so from now on I will try to do something productive each day...and i wrote down another list of things i want to accomplish in my life time...and next to that list ill have another list that will say what i did each day for that goal to come true...yeah i know...but baby steps ppl geesh...lol...on a somber note RIP to my Uncle Bob and to that family that got mudered at the hands of the husband in Cali...Whoa....and FREE STEVE....im gone..........

2009 is upon us!

okay so ima little late on the whole 2009 thing, forgive me! well 2008 was amazing and weird at the same time and i'm hoping 2009 can bring a little sanity into my little world. first i would like a moment of silence for all of those who passed in 2008..................................................................okay R.I.P.......right now...i am chillin kinda ready to go back to school (i thought i'd never say that phrase lol)....i downloaded the new sha stimuli mixtape called the break-up so go download that asap....the cover art is amazing and its a concept album as well...highly suggest it...i'm still bumping charles hamilton too....my new years resolution is too not cuss as much, pray 4 times a day, rid myself of all negative ppl and things and to be a better person overall...i can be evil at times....i also just want to live another day and for my family to be ok.....thats basically it for me.....

Right Now

So right about now, im back at school finishing up the semester and whatnot...umm not a part of the bball team right now...might transfer or stay...im totally undecided right now...im leaning towards staying here but i will re evaluate everything at the end of the year and will come to a decision around june or julyish...family...we good right now...pj is getting big and he getting some color (LOL)...jr doing good in school er thang...i really dont know about the brothers and sisters on my 'fathers" side because my poor ass excuse for a dad is an asshole...yea thats pretty mean but its the truth...i could hurl more insults but im nice and mature...something he will never kno about...anyways...im really just writing expressing my feelings and getting on with life...im really chill right now...thats the best way to explain it...i will get a summer job and all that...i mean its stuff i gotta have ya know...and since i last wrote i have a significant other in my life at the moment...so we will see how that goes but its lookin good for us...i really dont get serious til we hit about 5 months so 2 down 3 to go...lol...but im good on my end...god is good...im thankful for my family cuz without them i am NOTHING!!!!

The Season is Here!!!

Whats up world? I knw i havent bn updating n a while and i apologize...ummm well the season officially starts monday with a game at lindsey wilson college...as of right now i do not knw if i will b playing because i have bn suspended but my status is up n the air as as right now. My new little one is doing great gettin bigger and he is healthy. I was a little down and out yesterday because of the simple fact is that I expect so much from myself and I am not performing up to my abilities. I just want to win every game and b perfect but I kno there is no such thing as perfect but i still wish to achieve that. I am focusing on just working hard each day to get better. I am gonna start a new section on the website where every Monday i ask a question from a fan.. please submit ur questions to brittanyfears12@gmail.com n the subject put question of the week... i promise i will answer each and every one...also how about Rajon last night? missed a couple of free throws but over all he had a good game...also my heart goes out to J. Hudson and her family in their time of need..well thats all for now...love u all...god bless

HOOPIN!!!!

YEA SO THE FIRST OFFICIAL PRACTICE WAS YESTERDAY....ALL WAS WELL....WE WERE JUS GETTIN N2 THE FLOW OF EVERYTHING I GUESS....LITTLE DISAPPOINTED I WASNT NAMED A CAPTAIN, BUT HEY....I NEED TO "GROW UP" AS THEY SAY....I MEAN IM TIRED OF PPL TRYING TO CHANGE WHO I AM...I MEAN IM ME...IF I WALK AROUND MUGGIN PPL THEY SAY IM MAD....BUT IF I SMILE AND JOKE AROUND IM PLAYIN TOO MUCH??? WAT???? GET OUTTA HERE....I GUESS I HAVE TO FIND THE COMMON GROUND....BUT IMA ALWAYS B BFEARS...WEN ONE DOOR CLOSES ANOTHER ONE OPENS....SO RIGHT NOW IM JUS FOCUSED ON BETTERING MYSELF EVERY DAY...WORKING HARD...STARTING AND GETTING OFF JV...SO THATS MY MAIN FOCUS...BESIDES SCHOOL AND MY WONDERFUL BEAUTIFUL FAMILY WHO I MISS SO MUCH EVERYDAY....I DO IT FOR THEM...I SWEAR I MISS THEM MORE THEN THEY WILL EVER KNOW....BUT IM TAKIN CARE OF BUSINESS FOR US....OTHER THEN THAT ALL IS GOOD IN MY LIFE....ONE MONTH THE FIRST GAME...CANT WAIT....IM LOOKIN TO AVERAGE AT LEAST 10 POINTS, 6 REBOUNDS, 5 ASSISTS, AND 2 STEALS....AND IM JUS BEING MODEST....AS THE SEASON GETS CLOSER EXPECT THOSE NUMBERS TO INFLATE....LOL....

9-22-08

So on 9-16-08, another reason for my existence was born...PJ Brown Jr was born and man babies r such a blessing...this is my 8th sibling and its still special...i could b havin a horrible day and i look at him or jus think about him and i cant even get mad...i jus wana smile man...jus smile...in other news in doing good...school is good....ball is good...life is good...i gotta new saying. now BRAND NEW DAY...BRAND NEW SIGHT..BRAND NEW VIEW...ON THIS THING CALLED LIFE... so thats how I'm livin....

Takin' Off (Aug. 13th 08 on myspace)

Well 2ma im leaving 4 college and this past yr has bn a real eye opener 4 me...Losing frenz, gaining sum, fighting others, damn wat hasn't happened??? The highest of the highs the lowest of the lows, I have experienced them these past 12 months. For better or for worse??? only time will tell... To everyone that has supported me and continues to from the bottom of my heart I can do nothing but that u one thousand times over...for the ones who have distanced themselves from me and we no longer speak....i want to say thank u as well...people are in your lives for a reason or a season something like at yall kno wat i mean LOL...but i learn from every mistake that i have made...and to think that i graduated from high school...not many do that...and my own (father) sperm donor didnt show up...its nothin tho...never has really bn apart of my life...doesnt care rather spend his time and money on 19 year old females while chasing his dream of staying young...i dnt use this word but for his its a must..NIGGA PLEASE....git the fuck outta here man...and as much as I say i dnt care i do jus a little bit...but for the ppl that wrote me off and dnt do right by me...success is the ultimate revenge...i will succeed...but lemme git off his sorry ass and on to ppl who matter...mama i love u...without u there is no me literally...we bump heads all the time but hey u still love me...granny...love u much u r everything a person could want and need n a grandmother...u r there 4 me and vice versa...many ppl hate on r bond...and wat we got can nvr b broken...man im nervous not scared...finna start anew...a new journey new things man its exciting...im happy...to get outta louisville (ima b an hour and a half away tho dnt cry LOL) to start new to do something wit my life...no offense to anybody but i want bigger things outta life not the same o shit...i want chicken Parmesan not chicken noodles LOL feel me??? and most of all i wanna give all 8 of my brothers and sisters the life i never had..to wake up and have everything...i wanna spoil them...fuck everything else...that is my motivation. My brothers and sisters I want them to have everything i never did...shoes, clothes, candy, a big backyard man i want them to have it all...if i can do that then my life goal is accomplished...and to everyone that i hurt, I apologize (to 1 person in particular). I was young dumb and stupid but that still cannot excuse my behavior...If i was to turn back the hands of time i would to change everything i ever did to hurt u...(i kno thats played out but i had to use it again LOL) But i am a true believer in everything happens 4a reason and so i mean good luck with everything i hope we can b frenz but jus keep n touch wit me...u dun moved on and i am 2...

New Blog Stuff

Well this is my new blog...Many of you have read my previous works on myspace or what not and thants cool...I will continue to post on both but mostly on here...right now...i am living life to fullest and thankful for everyday...i am n college loving it and tryna get an education...n for more years i will b a teacher...so thats what im workin towars now...a lot of ppl i used to associate with i dnt any more and im fine with that....so thats all for now...keep checking back...

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